How are you? I feel like it has been a while since I have written a personal post. I have moved out of my old place into a new space and it still feels odd. I know it takes time but I am just not there yet.
The world seems like a strange place right now. I am a travel photographer who hasn’t left the country due to Covid19. My last flight was in March from Utah. I wish I had a crystal ball that told me this was going to happen, I would have switched Utah for Paris.
My anxiety levels are high. I don’t see a lot of friends like I used to due to Covid19. I have always worked from home, but I found ways to be social including my daily dance class. Now those are done on zoom from my bedroom. The girls don’t really stay after class and socialize, everyone just signs off once the class is over. My weekly trips to the farmers market aren’t as fun as they used to be with socially distanced lines and masks. Dinners out to a restaurant with friends are a distant memory. I know others are going out and that is their decision, I am making my own decisions that are best for me.
I am so grateful that I got to spend time with my dad a few weeks ago. I missed my niece’s 7th birthday and zoom cake wasn’t the same. My nephew turns 4 next month and he isn’t as great on Facetime as he is in person so connecting with him is hard. I send them care packages with stickers, books, and cookies as often as I can.
I feel I am in a bit of a creative rut right now. I was in a groove for a while and sometimes it just stops. If you are creative you know what I am talking about. The creativity can run like water and other times it doesn’t. I know it will come back, it always does.
I had a breakdown yesterday, I was emotional about everything… I cried for most of the day. I pulled up a yoga class and rolled out my mat. Afterward, I took a long shower and did some beauty self-care before putting on my pajamas. I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t sleep. I was taking on the stress, anxiety, and all the worries. and I couldn’t stop. I turned to CBD pills which eventually put me back to sleep until the morning.
I know that what I am feeling right now is only normal and I am sure some of you are feeling the same way with stress and anxiety or a whole bunch of other emotions.
I saw this quote on Instagram and it was exactly what I needed to hear. I need to be patient and take one day at a time.
To look at the positive, I am healthy and so is my family. My photography business is surviving.
I would love to know how you are doing? Feel free to share below or shoot me an email.